a new beginning.

Those who know me, or have read my feeble attempts at blogging before, know that I am not a fan of change. However, change always seems to be one of those areas that God tests me and stretches me the most. He constantly tries to drag me from my comfort zone while I try to wither away in the safety of what's always been. So, here I am. In Kansas. 1,200 miles from home, my family, all I've ever really known and currently from one of my sweet babies.

Congratulations, God.
You win.

So, our family's new journey has just begun. And with that new journey comes many new changes. Thus the new blog post. Maybe I'll actually be able to keep it up this time? Doubt it.

We headed out Tuesday morning, leaving behind Pennsylvania- the state I've lived in my entire life. The place where pretty much everyone I love and care about is. The state where I know how to get to the places I need to be... where I have a general idea of where I am... where I recognize town and street names. And  now... well... like I said, it's 1,200 miles away. The only familiarity I have here is my husband and one of our babies.

On that note, we left Max at home with my parents until we can secure housing. One of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make. I battled that whole mommy anxiety thing ever since my dad mentioned the idea. You know... would he be mad at me? Now or when he's older? Is he gonna remember me? Still love me? Would he even really notice that I was gone? So many thoughts. The slightly selfish mommy part of me didn't want to leave him behind, but the more I thought and prayed about it, I truly felt it would be better to let him stay behind with my parents and siblings in his comfort zone instead of ripping him from it to live in a hotel for who knows how long and face all the stress and unexpected things in Kansas. I still don't completely know if it was the right choice, but what's done is done. I've called him every day and he seems to be doing fine. I, on the other hand, am missing my baby boy like crazy. It is nice though, to get some one on one time with just Lucy. Something I don't think I'd ever have gotten if he had come along.

Some pictures from our journey:

 

 

 

Lucy liked Ohio so much that she just wanted to eat.

 

 

Touchdown in Ohio.

 

 

She's already got Daddy wrapped around her finger and she knows it. ;-)

 

She hogs a king size bed like you would not even believe.

 

Little Princess thanks to Daddy.

 

 

 

We travelled through Pennsylvania, West Virginia, Ohio,

Indiana, Illinois, Missouri, and Kansas.

 

Seeing/driving over the Mississippi for the first time ever.

Pretty stoked.

 

 

 

 

The skies and clouds are crazy gorgeous in Indiana!

 

 

 

 

 

Oh, you know... just taking selfies while Daddy is doing paperwork.

 

My little mini-me... already making silly faces at the camera.

 

Aaaaaand... she ditched me for a nap. Traitor.

 

Our amazing hotel. I could just live here for the next four years.

What do you think Army? Huh?

 

Crazy, creepy clouds outside of our hotel last night.

I was deathly afraid that there was going to be a tornado on my first day in Kansas.

 

For the record, tornadoes are one of my biggest fears and I

 NEVER saw myself living in a state that was in "Tornado Valley."

 

Pool and hot tub! Guess where Lu and I will be

hanging all weekend? ;-)

 

 

My sweet little chubba wubba. <3

 

Hahaha. He was totes drooling.

 

Little Miss "I Have Long Eyelashes Like My Daddy and Big Brother"

Not fair.

 

Ready for the pool. She's a total water baby.

 

We also have some photos from "The Gateway Arch" in St. Louis Missouri, but for some reason they're not uploaded yet. I'll try to post them soon.

 

 

We arrived at Ft. Riley yesterday around 2 pm and found a super nice, brand new hotel which will serve as our home for at least until Tuesday when we'll hopefully know whether or not we have housing.

Lu's getting buggy and Fred's gone to Wal-Mart, so that's all for now.

Peace. <3